Play your cards go against all odds, shoot for the moon, if you miss you’re still amongst those stars.
So this is going to be a two part post. First part will be somewhat about Linux as I know some of you follow me for my Linux posts and the second parts going to be more on a personal level.
So as many of you may or may not know, I spend a lot of time on the command line. I have not always been like that. I used to prefer guis for everything. For the last two years though, I’ve just felt more comfortable on the command line than I have been using guis. I don’t really like guis for the most part anymore.
A few command line programs I would suggest, would be irssi (
net-irc/irssi) for IRC.
I really like it, and it’s very minimal. When I don’t feel like using an actual DE, I use it on a tty. There are a lot of plugins, and one I really like when I’m using XFCE is the
fnotify.pl. It’s a script that which utilizes the
libnotify notification system, which sends a notification if you are highlighted in a channel or private messaged. It tells you the channel, nick and message. I was using irssi without this plugin for a long time, until a friend of mine in the Sabayon channel on Freenodes IRC told me about it. (irenicus09 check out his blog) I love it and it works very well, and it can be found here. There are many different plugins available for irssi, which can be found here. These scripts should go into
~/.irssi/scripts/autorun if you want them to run when you start irssi, or you could just put them in
~/.irssi/scripts and use the command
Another program I would suggest would be moc, or Music On Console. (
It’s very simple, there’s a help file if you run it from terminal (
user@host ~ $ mocp) and pressing ‘h’. I don’t know if there are any plugins available as I have not really looked into it too much, I just use it to listen to my music, if I don’t want to use my phone. It works pretty good.
Another program that works very well, if you use Pidgin (
net-im/pidgin). It’s called
finch. It uses Pidgin from the command line.
I really like using it, but I will admit Pidgin is one thing I still more frequently use a gui for. Mainly because it utilizes the
libnotify notification system. (
x11-plugins/pidgin-libnotify). It supports mostly all forms of IM. Yahoo, MSN, Facebook, AIM, etc etc.
Another thing that I use often is
nano. I have been using it recently to write my blog posts. I liked the email idea, but I just decided to switch to using
nano mainly because I have a folder for my blog, and I can back up the posts locally. I just have it set to
~/techg3ek. It works out pretty well. I really don’t like using the WordPress site. I can’t even figure out why, I just don’t. It’s weird.
Anyway, so I purged all the other desktop environments I had installed. It was very simple:
# rm -rf /etc/portage/package.keywords/ && emerge -uDNavt world && emerge --depclean kde-base/kde-meta lxde-base/lxde-meta x11-wm/awesome x11-wm/enlightenment && emerge --depclean; revdep-rebuild
/etc/portage/package.keywords for me was a directory, NOT a file. I use
/etc/portage/package.accept_keywords for any
keyword changes. I ended up reinstalling Openbox, and adding pypanel (
x11-misc/pypanel), but have not used it yet. I also cycled my battery today, because my friend blaise from Sabayon on Freednode reccommended doing that. The reason I also added
emerge -uDNavt world was because after losing the
/etc/portage/package.keywords directory, it brought me back down to
x11-wm/enlightenment-1.0.8, then I just depcleaned it. Another depclean to purge everything else associated with it, and then it’s done. I ran
revdep-rebuild just to make sure it didn’t get rid of anything important I need, and then it’s done.
One thing I would suggest to anyone really wanted to learn Linux is learning how to be comfortable on the command line, learn the commands, use the commands, use programs that are used on the command line. It makes life so much easier.
Now onto some more personal things…
I had a dream a couple nights ago, which the reason I bring this up is because I don’t usually remember my dreams. In this dream my best friend was there, and I have not seen her since I was 19. And before that I hadn’t seen her since I was 17, and before that was way before I got sent away when I was 14. This dream felt so real, I was sad when I woke up and realized it was just a dream. She’s really important to me, and not to mention the first girl I was ever in love with. We didn’t do much in the dream, we just were hanging out and talking, but it was still nice. I really miss her, and I never really fully got over those feelings I had for her when I was younger, even though she unintentionally broke my heart, and I doubt she even knows she did. I never said anything, and I’m not going to now. And I’m safe, because I know she doesn’t read this. I don’t really know what to say, it kind of just threw me off, which is another reason I brought it up.
We were very close when we were growing up, then after we kissed when I was 17 and she was 18, things just kind of fell apart. I wish I would have said something, but I guess I kind of felt like I had already ruined our friendship, and I didn’t want to ruin it further. This was probably a pretty irrational thought, but I was only 17 years old.
Anyway, we still talk on and off, but I don’t know, it may never be the same. But I’ll always love her, and she’ll always be my best friend no matter what.
School has been okay, I just really want it to be over. I am thinking about just taking the reamining credits I have next semester, which is about 21 credits. Which may seem like a lot, but I figure if I can just bust it out and be done with it, I’ll be happier. I really don’t like school, I never have. I know a lot of people don’t, but most of my family (other than my mom and brother) really liked school. I may take 18 credits and the last 3 next fall. 18 credits is not much, especially since right now this semester I’m taking 16. I just want to be done so bad, and all I have left are pretty easy classes. I’m taking all my harder classes this semester. Will just make things easier for me.
Other than school consuming most of my time lately, just really haven’t been doing much. Been feeling myself getting more down lately. I can’t really figure out why, just been feeling really down. I’m not really lonely, or at least not more lonely than I usually am. I talked to my therapist about it and she said that I sound like I feel stuck. I guess that’s what it is more than anything, being ‘stuck’. And I’m trying to get ‘unstuck’, going to school and talking to people and writing here to help get most of this shit out of my head, and talk to some people on IRC and post on my Linux blog. I just get down. I try to have a positive attitude on life, I guess I’ve just been tired lately. Not physically, but emotionally and mentally. I don’t know, I’ll figure it all out eventually.